(…writen on October 11, 2008)
See how time does fly. It’s already few days until mid of October. And so many things have happened. Just in less than 2 months but it feels like I’m in the roller coaster, emotionally.
GOD, it’s just too many things are going on to me in the same time.
Some things maybe I could ignore or simply forget it… some things I follow thru without knowing how it will be like in the end, is it going to hurt me deeper or just make my life even more colorful, some things I fight so hard and some things that I try to enjoy it…
Somehow it comes to the point in my life when (maybe) GOD wants me to see and understand there is another side of life, another side of being a woman, another side that I never never imagine before will be a part of my journey.
Many times I feel that it’s just too much… overwhelming. But still here I am with all of these stuff J and still manage to put a smile in my face.
Close people around me, they have their own story. Some of them are struggling too with the same issue. The big issue now, about health. Some of them are struggling with love & relationship and it is also hard, sometimes could be heartbreaking. As for me, GOD is so good to give me those issues, health, love & relationship and the one that I am trying hard to ignore, also about my family. Gosh… and if I still can smile and write this now, I think because GOD knows, I can endure it. I can…
Back to the good quote that I got from a very good book just 3 months ago. About a question (I think it’s repeatedly question) “why GOD ask me to do this, to go there?” the answer just simple “because GOD knows you will say yes!”. The same question now, “why GOD lets all of these happen to me?”, just simple answer “because GOD knows you can endure it”. Wow… isn’t it so great…
What if I fail? Have GOD knew already the end of this chapter? What it will be like? Am I the winner or do I fail in this chapter?
When I look back my life while I was a teenager, well maybe when I was just “an ordinary” woman few years ago (my teenager is not just few years ago, it’s years ago) life was not easy either and I already thought that I was the complicated one in the world. Full of twists and turns. But now, when I see my life now, the word “complicated” is still there and plus “overwhelming”…
However, if only I could look around me, look people around me and try to understand that each life has their own story. It is the people who live their life that make the happy ending or sad ending. And maybe will always remember that happiness is the journey not the destination.
Because dear, life is a journey, so try to enjoy it… enjoy all the small things in life. There will be storm along the journey but how we can dance in the storm, that, will make the journey different…
